I check you everyday. Lately, nothing new has been coming up. When that happened with others, I felt victorious, as though their lives fell apart once I wasn’t with them. With you, though, it’s different. Sometimes I want to see you so badly that I stay up for hours trying to find you.

Yes, I could go see you down in real life. I know where you are, and it’s quite close. But that isn’t going to happen.

So instead I wake up both hoping and dreading that you have become so well-known and adored that it would be impossible for even an hour to pass without someone taking your picture and posting it for me to see. And then there are days where I feel less frantic, just sad and lonesome. On those days I’ll type your name and my name right after it, because it’s nice to see us next to each other like that.
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