Dear Old Love, (Again).
Thursday, March 22, 2012 | 2:14:00 AM | 0 comments
So.. You finally decided to text me up. You tell me you are so sorry, again. Then, you tell me that you wanna to start over, again. When I explain to you that I've moved on and I met someone new, you try to disconnect but keep coming back to me all day.Why must I be so nice to let you back into my life even for just a second? Bcoz now, we are arguing. We always argue before we completely stop talking. I was reminded of why I can't even stand you but then, I was reminded of why I've always wanted to stay. Then, I remembered I'm already taken. I can't do this to him. It's wrong for you to expect me to choose you over him. And for you to even tell me that it's an easy decision? Oh please bro. I'm sorry, try being in my shoes for once before you say things like that.
I want to make the right decision when it comes to choosing between him and you. I shouldn't even be given this option. It is ovbious what I should do. But due to my heart, I consider all options and feelings from everyone. I think three fucking steps ahead and how it could possibly end and then, I think about myself again.
Seriously, I feel horrible that I'm even thinking about this and he doesn't even know. But what is there to tell when you keep telling me to forget it and just stay with him and then you come back to me moments later? Why can't you respect my stance and back the hell off? Why couldn't you have come earlier? Surely, this isn't all about fate, is it?
It's obvious that I deserve better than you, which is why I am with him. Then why am I still thinking about it? I almost wish you never came back into my life. I wish I had the strength to straight up tell you that I choose him and I will. One day, you'll no longer in my life.
I chose him bcoz he knows what I want and what I need. He understands me. Yes, we do argue but not that often. I actually enjoyed arguing with him bcoz of silly things. Life's mine, I can choose who to be and who will be no longer be in my life. Now, I shall say, Hi to my New Love.